Abuse and the 99%

.”..So, there is this sort of never- ending thought that goes through my head, this mobius strip of subsoncious yammering that just makes me want to lay down and take a fucking nap all the time. ......”
 
   It is that constant voice from your childhood. The voice of your parents or wolves or whomever what raised you up to be a person of a wolf. That voice that tells you always: "you are loved", "you are smart", "you are pretty", "You are a winner", "you are the greatest", "you are a loser", "you are a victim", "you are loved conditionally"....or "you are controlled", "you are a piece of shit".
  You can use your pathetic little monkey brain to either accept or reject reality. In the case of how your parents raise you, how they raise you, how they lead you dictates how you feel about yourself, whether or not you know it, or believe it to be true or not. What they say goes-and grows into your grownup brain. That is why you need to be loved unconditionally, that is why you need consistency and discipline. That is why maybe you looked up to your coaches and teachers more than your parents.

   If your little voice is always telling you you are a piece of shit and you are always making bad decisions because of it. It 's not your fault.

   That is the  thing that sucks about this is that it isn't your fault. It is the fault of whoever made you that way-and just a Jeffrey Dhamer knew what he was doing, often times the people who are at fault for making you feel like shit and act worse knew what they were doing. They were exerting power for their own pleasure.
It is their fault. The blame lies with them.
Unfortunately the responsibility lies with you.
Period.
You pay the consequences-and unless you can document, in detail, how they are responsible and sue them, or have them arrested, you only have one recourse: Take responsibility for your life and don't allow them quarter or forgiveness unless they earn it.

   Nobody said life was fair, nobody ever promised Easy Street. Some get lucky, some are average, and some just get the shaft-and it makes no difference what race or class or religion.
   Empathy and compassion need to be extended first to the victims of psychological abuse-and by that I don’t mean just the ones who weren’t ever touched by their abusers, I mean all of the ones who never could show proof.
  What is worse than getting hurt, bullied, belittled, abused, raped, beaten?
Having that happen and no one believes you?  That is the final nail through your heart.
  Love those people first and most, they are the ones who need it most. Those who have suffered longest.
   Those are the people out in the street right now, y’know?
The ones who always thought that their leaders would do the right thing if shown the way. Hoping against hope that the weight of their responsibility would force them to drop the act and face reality.
This runs deeper than greed.
This is how the 99% feel about their ‘leaders’.
They aim to hold them accountable, or walk away from them and let them die alone.